UGHH

I really hate this.
I'm stuck all alone. Even though I know I'm not really alone. I hate it. My family does nothing but watch TV. I'm seriously sick of it. Turn the stupid thing off for a night. Would it really hurt? Joey won't even hang out with me. I asked him to, and he said he didn't feel like doing anything and took a nap. Know what he did after he got up from his nap and ate? Started playing Mario Kart with his friends. Like, coooool. You obviously don't want to do anything. And I was supposed to hang out with one of my friends today, but she never texted me. And I saw pictures of her hanging out with someone else today. SO THIS HAS JUST BEEN GRAND.
Like, I'm sitting here feeling awful, and I'm trying to turn it around and feel better... but it's so hard when there's no resolve. I'm praying and praying but nothing gets fixed. I'm just alone and sad and alone. And I'm just trying not to take it out on anyone. I'm so upset, and it's so easy to get mad at someone and take it out on them but I don't want to do that. So my phone's off just to avoid something stupid happening.
So yeah. I'm here. Alone. In my room. Crying with my green tea.
This is just a fabulous night and I really hate my life right now. (I know, I shouldn't. I have so much to be thankful for...)
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