But I feel like that's perfectly alright. : ) God made me beautiful. We're all made in His image, and there's nothing more beautiful than that.
Anyways, I wrote this song. I thought I'd share it, since it's from the heart. I prayed for some guidance on it, since I plan on playing it for church Sunday night. Feedback is always acceptable. ; ) Ha ha.
Now that I've got that out of the way . . . Wow. What a week. Things have worn me down, things have built me up! I think the wearing down seemed to happen a little bit more . . . ha ha. Ever feel like church should be your spiritual recharge? I'm missing that a lot more now. I don't know what the deal is, but that's just how I feel. I end up doing so much at church, and doing so much for it, I barely get anything out of it anymore. I'm praying for a change of heart, and I'm praying for our youth leader especially, since he's nothing but annoyed with Wednesday nights now. That wears me out a lot. I need some recharge and showing up at church just wears me down now. Get there, practice once, practice again, do the real deal, sit through a lesson, go do the other real deal, sit through another real service . . . go home for a couple of hours, then go back for choir. More music for the evening, another sermon, then eventually go home and maybe sleep?! Yeah, Sundays are long. Such long, long, looooong days. I can't handle it without God. He helps me out so much on these days that are too much for me. Wednesday nights are even pretty brutal. Show up and get lectured about how we're a terrible youth group. It's really disappointing because I have to do all my work with God alone at home . . . However, I'm really thankful for it, too. It's made me work harder to get close to God. It's not like I don't get anything out of the sermons. I really do. I forget them quickly, but it doesn't mean I don't get anything out of them, ha ha. I just do so much better at home. ( : And I'm glad that I have a tangible relationship with God outside of the church.
Which reminds me!!!
One of the best things ever . . . I did it for the devotional us girls are doing . . . Go on a literal walk with God. There's this nature trail by my house . . . wonderful walk with God. Just talking with Him, telling Him how much I love Him, and really soaking up His love for me. I did it on Thursday. The weather was lovely on top of lovely, and His creation is wonderful. Nothing is more beautiful than our Wonderful Lord's creations! He's my favorite artist. : )
Also, I read Mark 12 tonight. Definitely spoke to me! Especially verses 38 through 40. I have to sing Sunday night, and I want to make sure I'm doing it humbly before God, not proudly and for praise in the church. Pray for me! I need to be humbled before I go up on that stage!
My nephew is such a blessing! He's such a sweet boy. I got to babysit him tonight. Loved it. : )
Anyways, long night! Nighty night!
Love, prayer, and blessings!!
~Natalie M.
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